On Friday April 13 2018, Elizabeth K. Lawrence from the United States left the following message for Teja Yarlagadda:
"Hey Tej, I know you told me not to call you or anything. I don't know if emailing was forbidden or not. But, something was weighing heavily on my mind and if I don't get this off of my chest, I never will. So, I will write this one and only email to you. You can read it if you want, you're probably gonna delete it and that's fine too. But, I'm going to say what I feel for me. Not for you or anyone else. So, here it goes: I'm okay, Teja. I'm okay with everything. Our last conversations, I was emotional. I was confused, angry, depressed and really drained. I wanted so much for our relationship to work an any type of capacity. I didn't know that I was making the same mistake I did years earlier: I neglected my health and happiness. I think you knew that, so that's why you cut me off once and for all. I mean, I like to believe that's why. I know that's not the reason. But the reason why I was so stubborn was because. You are the longest relationship I've ever had. You were my lover, friend, enemy, rival, everything. We were toxic, I know that. I knew that it was never going to work out between us. Despite what you thought, I had accepted the fact that we could never be together. But, I couldn't write you out of my life because you've been a a part of it for so long. I can't quit you just like that. It may have been easy for you, but it wasn't for me. I tried before, you know. But our very last conversation we had, when you said that you were done with us. I knew that it was completely over. That chapter in my life was finally closed. But I couldn't accept it then. Because the moment I did, would mean that I failed. I failed us. As hard it was for me to admit, it was over between us and it was my fault. I tried blaming you, but it was all me. After we talked, I called a close friend of mine and told her what happened. She asked me how I felt. I told her I felt relieved but I also felt empty at the same time. It felt like someone close to me just died. A part of me died when you told me you wanted nothing to do with me. Because I never loved anyone else before or after you. I wanted to hold on to that no matter what. Now, I didn't have it anymore, I didn't know where to go from here. So, I cried. I cried like I never cried before. I loved you, Teja. I don't think you understood that. You hurt me too many times than I can count. You were horrible to me, tr Eated me like I was nothing, made me feel worthless sometimes. You messed me up. And I still forgave you. I gave you another chance when you wanted to make things right between us. But you took my kindness for weakness and took my love and forgiveness for granted. I knew that and I still forgave you. But I did one thing to hurt you. Several things. And I've committed an unforgivable sin. It wasn't fair. It still isn't. But I'm not writing you to rehash the past. There's nothing I can do about it anymore. And like I said, I needed to get some things off my chest. I'm writing you to tell you that I'm okay. I'm okay with what happened. I'm okay with our relationship being over. I have gone almost three months without calling you or attempting to contact you. And I'm okay. I haven't cried since that day until now. As I'm writing this, memories are flooding my mind and I'm crying. But I hardly think about you anymore. I guess it's because I spent so much time getting over you if I brought myself to think about you, I'll just be miserable again. I'm okay with the time we spent together, the moments we shared. I know what we had was special. I know at some point, you loved me. You cared about me and you were a good friend. Despite everything, I know that you are a good person. I still believe that. Even though present events and your current behavior would tell me otherwise. You wanted me to move on so I can find someone who will love me unconditionally with no restrictions. I still don't believe that I will find that person but I'm not going to lose hope. So I'm okay. I'm okay with what transpired because I think I needed a kick in the butt so I can move on. I just wanted you to know this, though. I would've still called your parents and told them about us. I know when I did that, it initially was intended to hurt you. But, now that I'm reflecting on it now. I did it because our relationship was mostly secretive and I always felt ashamed of that. Telling them was a relief and I would do it again if given the chance. You told me not to contact you and that probably included email. Please don't get angry with me. I just needed to get that off of my chest. I won't email you again after this. I know that you're still upset with me about what happened and you're most likely going to block me every way till Sunday and make sure I never contact you again. Just consider how hard this was for me to write you this letter. Consider the fact that I took your threat seriously and haven't contacted you until now. Please think about what our relationship meant to me. And what it meant to you. Before you completely write me off and think of me as nothing, consider these things. But if your heart is still frozen and you write back to me in a cruel manner, and tell me to fuck off and you're never talking to me again. I'll be okay with that. I'm no longer afraid of the consequences and your resolve. I don't have any regrets about what happened, what I did and my actions. I loved you, Teja Yarlagadda. You were apart of me. And you will always have a special place in my heart. Nothing you can do or say to me will ever change that. I'm not fully happy. But I'm okay. And that's enough for me. I have no animosity towards you. I don't hate you. I can never hate you. I've forgiven you a long time ago. I still forgive you for what you did. I wish you will forgive me but I know that will take some time. But I hope you get through whatever it is you are going through. I wish you all the happiness in the world. Goodbye Teja. Love, Liz"
Elizabeth K. Lawrence left an e-mail address and a telephone number.