I`m broken beyond repair, but I`m proud of how hard I`ve tried. But the whole desire for the approval of others, social media likes, stack exchange reputation, sure there is an enormous difference between the two, I get none of the former because I`m an asshole, and I`ve got some of the later, but at the end of the day working hard does not equate to financial reward. There are quirky "influencers" that are literally millionaires, but I`m certain that I`m far from the only one that`s thrown everything into much more demanding academic pursuits but are living below the poverty line. But this is the world`s order now. Terrifying, isn`t it? ©