spoke to me as far as like a writing style that I could adhere to and that I could kind of find my voice because I`m still pounds overweight I have to lose the weight first and then I can start dating or you know I am too busy in my career right now I can`t think about that so I need to wait if that`s something that`s lacking in your life and something that you want make it happen now now the funny thing that I did I became convinced that I was not going to find a relationship until my career took off because I thought you know I`m down here right now I`m gonna be up here and then when I`m up here that`s what I`m ©